Monday, May 28, 2012

Deer in the Woods

I've been trying to keep up my long walks and have been successful for the past three days. Today we saw a doe with her fawn standing still like statues on the path about 20 yards in front of us. My dogs were alert but not barking. The fawn was about twenty feet closer to us than her mother. We kept inching up hoping that they would take off. The fawn continued to munch on leaves while the mother struggled with bolting vs staying to protect her child. Finally the fawn turned away and they both galloped off.  The picture is a little blurry because I took it with my iPhone and then enlarged it we can see the pair.

My enervated dogs immediately began barking and pulling. Since the pair stayed on the path (we could see their footprints in the mulch) all the way until we got off (about 10 minutes of hiking) my dogs refused to calm down. Getting home I checked everywhere for deer ticks on me... the dogs have been Frontlined for protection :)

Both dogs are now exhausted and hot. It's 80ยบ and humid outside. A hot May day in Door County.
My knees don't feel too bad! Yeah.

K

Friday, May 25, 2012

A "Long" Walk in the Woods

Today I walked for half an hour in the woods. Now for most of you, a half hour walk is nothing, but two months ago I couldn’t walk for even five minutes so this represents great progress! Recently I’ve been walking for 15 minutes every day (plus exercising in water for an hour). This coupled with my 19 pound weight loss has helped my walking enormously. Today I decided to try for a longer hike. My knees were pretty painful by the end, but I made it!!

My condo association is composed of single family homes mixed with duplexes (like mine) and four-plexes. We have an indoor pool, outdoor pool, weight room and lots of walking paths through the woods and past the part of the Niagara Escarpment that runs through our community. So today I took the dogs for a 30 minute walk in the woods. Woo Hoo!!

Unfortunately it's poison ivy season and so I spent a good portion of my energy trying to keep the dogs from wandering off the mulched paths into the much more attractive natural habitat populated by the enticing poison ivy plants.

Here’s some pictures I took on the way.
Footpath Bridge to the beach



Wild lilac in the woods
Lichen covered wood
Baby fir tree
Wriggley and Daisy my faithful and eager companions
Lilacs in my yard
Flowers outside my front door.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Three Detours

Well... today I have a few detours for you.

1st Detour: I’m disappointed but not surprised at the results in North Carolina.

A year ago I might have voted for the amendment. This year, no way. I have totally changed my position on gay marriage. I’ve done a lot of research and I now support gay marriage. It’s a matter of equal rights. I agree with Justin over at  Crumbs from the Communion Table who lives in North Carolina when he said:

“Is there a lot of prejudice in North Carolina against LGBT people? Absolutely there is. But it’s not, as some have imagined, just a matter of “bigoted homophobes.” By and large, the prejudice that exists is a matter of a lack of understanding. Many of the folks I’ve talked to honestly believe that people choose to be gay and could choose not to be. They think that giving legal recognition to same-sex partnerships would increase the number of people choosing to be gay, and would therefore encourage more people to turn away from God’s plan for their lives. When they talk about homosexuality as a “perversion,” they’re not trying to be bigoted or mean; they’re being quite literal about it.”

I know that it is pervasive belief within the Christian community that homosexuality is a choice and that it is possible, using ministries like Exodus to “change back to heterosexuality”. But how do we go about helping people understand that homosexuality is not a choice? After reading Love is an Orientation I became convinced that I needed to examine my long held beliefs about homosexuality.

Also, Rachel Held Evans makes a good point in her post “How to win a culture war and lose a generation.” She says:

“But every single student I have spoken with believes that the Church has mishandled its response to homosexuality. Most have close gay and lesbian friends.Most feel that the Church’s response to homosexuality is partly responsible for high rates of depression and suicide among their gay and lesbian friends, particularly those who are gay and Christian.Most are highly suspicious of “ex-gay” ministries that encourage men and women with same-sex attractions to marry members of the opposite sex in spite of their feelings.Most feel that the church is complicit, at least at some level, in anti-gay bullying. 

So my question for those evangelicals leading the charge in the culture wars is this: Is it worth it? Is a political “victory” really worth losing millions more young people to cynicism regarding the Church? Is a political “victory” worth further alienating people who identify as LGBT? Is a political “victory” worth perpetuating the idea that evangelical Christians are at war with gays and lesbians? And is a political “victory” worth drowning out that quiet but persistent internal voice that asks—what if we get this wrong?  Too many Christian leaders seem to think the answer to that question is “yes,” and it's costing them.  Because young Christians are ready for peace. We are ready to lay down our arms. We are ready to start washing feet instead of waging war.  And if we cannot find that sort of peace within the Church, I fear we will look for it elsewhere."



I wish we Christians would spend more time demonstrating the love and acceptance of Christ and less time trying to prove how righteous we are and how unrighteous everyone else is. Right now what I see within evangelical and fundamental Christianity are wars to exclude. Wars to exclude women (see John Piper, Mark Driscoll, SBC et al, as detailed at The Wartburg Watch), and of course wars to exclude gays and make sure the LGBT community has no rights.

It is not a pretty picture nor does it demonstrate the attitude that I see demonstrated by Jesus in the New Testament. The people that angered Jesus while he was on earth weren’t the women who were failing to submit to their husbands, weren’t the homosexuals, weren’t the outcasts of society. The people that angered Jesus were the judgmental / hypocritical religious leaders. Maybe when my generation and my parent’s generation is gone a kindler, gentler, more loving Christianity can emerge. Unfortunately, people seem to love bullying other people. This amendment is just another example of bullying on a large scale.

Sorry folks, but that’s how I see it.

2nd Detour: Tackling the Weight Update

On a happier note, I’ve lost 16.8 pounds in the past six weeks. YEAH!! I’ve been sticking faithfully to my food diary. I’ve been using My Fitness Pal on my iPad and iPhone to help me keep track of my eating. I’ve found that it is quite flexible (as in I can enter 1/2 a serving of something, I can scan the label of a food to get the nutritional information, I can calculate the calories in something I cook by entering all the ingredients in the recipe builder, I can combine frequent meals into one meal so I don’t have to enter everything every time.) Previously I used Weight Watcher to lose weight, but I HATE having to go to meetings and I HATE the weekly expense. My Fitness Pal has seemed to work as an easy to use food diary. 
Plus I’ve been working out regularly. I got a three month membership at a Recreation Facility near my home in Illinois and I have a pool and work-out room accessible at my condo in Door County. Right now, with my knees, I have found water exercises combined with limited walking to be effective. I've been doing 45 minutes to an hour 5 times a week at the pool plus 15-30 minutes of walking.

So anyway... whatever I’m doing is working. I’ve lost 16.8 pounds!! Yeah!!!
3rd Detour: My Grandson’s Coming!!

My grandson, Isaiah, is coming for the summer!!! I just made the plane reservations and he's coming June 20th. I'm so excited. I love having him here with me plus he’ll be here with me for six weeks. For the past two weeks I’ve been cooking up a storm. I like to cook ahead so that I don’t have to spend so much time cooking while he’s here. My two nephews join him up here with me in Door County for three weeks in July and it is very exhausting. So I’ve cooked and frozen: chili, taco meat, taco soup, BBQ, meatloaf, burgers etc. I have a menu prepared for all three weeks with items needed for one meal per day. They other meals are catch as catch can. At least this year they are old enough that I can leave Jake in charge and go shopping without taking all three with me.


Keeping three boys occupied (without allowing them constant access to electronics) is challenging. We play board games (they love Settlers of Catan, Civilization: The Board Game, Dominion, Ticket to Ride, and Empire Builder to name a few) and they are really good about playing together. Last summer they played secret agent and mob on their bikes every day for at least a week. Plus I have tons of Legos up here and an extensive kid’s library. This year I’m hoping they’ll make a movie together. That should be interesting.

Of course I have loads of electronics: Wii, Nintendo DS, two computers, my iPad and iPhone, and new this year an XBox. Still, I try to limit the game time to 2 hours per day.



We're only a block from the beach and we have two swimming pools at the condo and there are tons of trails nearby (if only I can walk).

Ah well. Other than that, I’ve been enjoying our protracted spring in Door County.


Thanks for reading. Kate

Saturday, April 14, 2012

My Brain on Fiction

My entire life (well as long as I have been able to read) I have loved reading fiction. When I was a child I would bicycle the mile to our library, take out the allowed four books, trek back home and read. Four days later, I’d ride back to the library for four more books. I was always frustrated that they would only let me take four books out at a time.

With three younger siblings, it was difficult to read without being interrupted. Eventually I nailed boards into the side of a tree that was right next to our garage and would climb up the tree to sit on the roof of the garage under the canopy of the tree and read in peace. I could even pretend that I didn’t hear my mother calling me in :). 
During my grade school years, I would read about a book a day. During my later elementary years, my favorite books were the Trixie Belden mysteries. I actually saved my money to purchase these books for myself... the beginnings of my extensive fiction library. I only really read the first six books in the series, written by Julie Campbell. I never really liked the books by the next author. I also enjoyed the Nancy Drew and Hardy Boy mysteries but my favorite character by far for several years was Trixie Belden. As an adult I have enjoyed science fiction, mysteries and mostly romance. There is enough stress in real life and I prefer that my reading be removed from real life... thus I prefer happy endings with minimum of stress. My favorite mysteries are the Lord Peter Wimsey mysteries by Dorothy Sayers. My favorite science fiction series is the Dragonriders of Pern by Anne Mccaffrey. I have a complete collection of D.E. Stevenson books in hardback... some first editions... which I have collected over many years through Alibris.com. 
I have several favorite romance writers: Susan Elizabeth Phillips, Julia Quinn, Trisha Ashley, Katie Fforde and Georgette Heyer . My favorite classic books are those written by Jane Austen. I read others, of course, but those are the favorites that I return to time and again.
I was extremely interested to recently read an article in the New York Times about how our brains respond to fiction. I have always enjoyed immersing myself in the world of the fiction book. Reacting to the characters and feeling about the characters as if they were real people. I’ve already talked about how I am an introvert and really don’t have any close friends at this point. What I do have, is friends in books and on blogs.

My reading has always provided me with a rich heritage of good friends. Now, I know that these good friends, particularly those in books, can’t listen to me ... but frankly, most of the friends I do have spend all their time with me talking to me. There’s very little listening (their listening) going on.

Anyway, I find the following quote very interesting:

The brain, it seems, does not make much of a distinction between reading about an experience and encountering it in real life; in each case, the same neurological regions are stimulated. Keith Oatley, an emeritus professor of cognitive psychology at the University of Toronto (and a published novelist), has proposed that reading produces a vivid simulation of reality, one that “runs on minds of readers just as computer simulations run on computers.” Fiction — with its redolent details, imaginative metaphors and attentive descriptions of people and their actions — offers an especially rich replica. Indeed, in one respect novels go beyond simulating reality to give readers an experience unavailable off the page: the opportunity to enter fully into other people’s thoughts and feelings.
The novel, of course, is an unequaled medium for the exploration of human social and emotional life. And there is evidence that just as the brain responds to depictions of smells and textures and movements as if they were the real thing, so it treats the interactions among fictional characters as something like real-life social encounters.
 

This kind of confirms my life experience. Fictional situations, worlds and words are a simulation of reality.  Now I don’t have to feel so bad about my obsession with fiction worlds. I can just sit back and enjoy my interactions with the characters and situations that others have created.

Thanks authors for populating my imagination with vivid characters.

Kate

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Taking Care of (Old) Business

I’ve been busy taking care of old business.


In 1974 when I divorced my husband, I asked to have my maiden name restored to me as my legal name. I changed my name everywhere: driver’s license, work, post office, passport. But I postponed changing my name with the Social Security Administration. At the time I was working in our family business and as I continued to work there until I retired in 2007, I didn’t need a accurate Social Security card.




With 65 coming up quickly, I decided that I’d better get around to changing my name. I don’t think Medicare will work with the wrong name on my card. I glibly flew into the Social Security office with driver’s license, tax forms, W-2s, passport. These were not good enough for Social Security. It seems I needed my divorce decree. Now some people are great with paper. Me not so much. In the intervening 38 years since my divorce I’ve moved six times and managed to lose those precious papers.

So I called the county offices in California where I was divorced and found out what I needed to do. Sent the blank check (open ended for fees) and a letter asking for a certified copy of my divorce. This came promptly, thank you very much.

Unfortunately, this was just one page saying the the interlocutory judgment given six months earlier was now in effect. There was nothing on the official divorce decree about my name change. So I sent off another letter and another blank check asking for a certified copy of the the interlocutory judgment. This came yesterday.

So I trudged off today to the Social Security office, patiently waited my turn, (amazingly I had less than a five minute wait) and finally, 38 years later, I have an accurate Social Security card.

Next stop... Medicare. Kate

Monday, April 2, 2012

Matthew Vines

I ran across a video from Matthew Vines on several different sites last week and I listened to the full 1.07 hour video. If you are a Christian and you care about what the Bible has to say about homosexuality, I encourage you to take the time to view the entire video... which I have posted below. (I haven't figured out how to embed it into this post).

Matthew’s column in the Huffington Post is also worth a read. He says, in part:

"I love God. I also happen to be gay. In a better world, this would be no more interesting or noteworthy to people than loving God and happening to love, say, cheesecake. But of course, we all know that that isn't the world we live in. And for some reason, a lot of people have a big problem with anyone who believes in God and is gay. As someone who grew up in a conservative Christian church in Kansas, I am all too aware of the problem of religious homophobia.
So when reality won out during my sophomore year of college and I finally had to admit to myself that I was gay, I was both relieved and crushed -- relieved because everything that hadn't made sense about my life finally did, and because love no longer seemed like an impossibility for me, but crushed because of the likelihood that I would be rejected and lose the community I had always called home."


Matthew’s comments are really thoughtful and sincere. I’m not sure I yet agree with him on his Romans 1:26-27 interpretation, but basically his views and interpretations are really well thought out and articulated with gentleness and respect. The video is an ideal link to share with parents and friends of LGBTQ Christians who are dealing with the intersection of the Christian faith and the LGBTQ community... or with people who are willing to explore what the Bible actually says about homosexuality.





 
Further background can be found on Kathy Baldock’s Canyonwalker Connections website. In her post she said,

“You cannot help but hear the scholarship with which he addresses the subject. Matthew not only educates the listener, he does so in a humble tone that will subtly cross even the most firmly constructed boundaries. His presentation is an excellent tool for the millions of gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender Christians that have left the faith or are hiding out. To many, the task of “proving” God loves them seems so daunting.”

Please, if you care at all about the intersection of Christian faith and loving the LGBTQ community, spend the time to watch this video. It will be time well spent.

Blessings, Kate.

The Gay Debate: The Bible and Homosexuality

Monday, March 26, 2012

Tackling the Weight

Well, I’ve finally decided to tackle my weight issue. (URGH!!)  I’ve had ongoing knee problems for five years so this is nothing new. But the day of my parent’s birthday party last month I basically spent 6+ hours on my feet which is an extreme amount for me to be on my feet. Since then my left knee has been especially PAINFUL!!! The right knee recovered in two weeks, but it's six weeks later and the left one still hurts whenever I walk or stand on it. I need to lose weight!!!

I’ve managed a successful diet twice in my life and both times I used Weight Watchers coupled with an exercise that I can enjoy. The first time (when I was 40) my friend and I spent our lunch hour doing a step class together five days a week in conjunction with Weight Watchers.  That time I lost my 70 smoking cessation pounds and kept them off for over a year, but as soon as the exercise stopped, the weight came back on. Then 10 years later I discovered Curves and used that successfully with Weight Watchers to lose 50 pounds. However, before I reached my weight goal, my son died and I lost focus. So here I am ten years later with those fifty pounds back on and then some.

Taken today in Door County... Forsythia blooming (and it's 30 degrees!)

Since I’m up in Door County right now, I’ve got the condo pool handy, so last week I started going to the pool and doing water aerobics and water walking. So far I've managed two days with at least 30 minutes and then a day off and then two days more. Yes! The walking and stretching and aerobics in the water has already started to help with my knee pain.

But I know that I need to cut back on the food as well. So I weighed in (ouch!)  and started a food diary. I hate the whole process, but I really need to lose some weight (big sigh).

OK... so I also decided to try to increase the dietary fiber portion of my diet. I did a web search for lentil recipes and found this one at the Huffington Post, but I didn’t have all the ingredients so I kind of took this as a starting point and used what I had on hand. I really enjoyed it... never really thought about sautรฉing lentils before. I’ve always used them in soups and stews.

Lentil Onion Mushroom Spinach Carrot Sautรฉ with Beer


First I cooked one pound of lentils in 2 cups low sodium chicken stock and four cups water with garlic, dried onion, a bay leaf, some Old Bay Seasoning, and a tiny pinch of salt.

While the lentils cooked, I chopped the vegetables:


Then I sauteed them in a 12" skillet with the following:

1 tbs olive oli
1/2 of a large red onion chopped
2 cups chopped mushrooms
2 cloves garlic minced
1/4 cup shredded carrots

I cooked the above for about six to seven minutes until the onions and mushrooms were brown and the carrots were soft. Then I added:

2 cups cooked lentils
dash tumeric
1/4 tsp oregano
1/4 tsp marjoram
1/4 tsp Old Bay Seasoning
tiny dash of salt
1/2 tsp ground black pepper
1/2 tsp Mrs. Dash Chicken Grilling spices
1/2 cup low sodium chicken broth
1/4 cup beer



Of course all these measurements are approximate. I really just shook a bit of each of the spices in. I cooked this mixture for a few minutes and then added:

2 large handfuls of salad greens (I used Organic Girl Super Greens) and cooked until the greens wilted. I ate it with a piece of whole grain toast. Yumm. First time I’ve ever really enjoyed lentils as a main entree. Plus is it also good cold.





I hope you try this. It's actually quite yummy (this from a carnivore). K

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Threatening the Family? Really?

Previously I have felt that although my church was not LGBT affirming, it was at least making some small steps towards building a few bridges of sensitivity to the LGBT community.

For example, a few months ago we had Christopher Yuan preach. Christopher is a Christian gay male who, for himself, has embraced holy sexuality (in practice for him I believe this means celibacy). In his message Christopher pointed out how to better speak/relate to LGBT people without causing offense. However, several weeks ago my pastor included the following illustration in his sermon:

"The family which has always been the basic structure and strength of any nation, since the beginning of time, is being threatened by same sex marriages. Two weeks ago, the new mayor of Chicago put his own stamp of approval for the legalization of same sex marriage in the state of Illinois. It is coming."


Unfortunately, if I had been a visiting LGBT person that day, I would have taken offense. How can we successfully touch the LGBT people in our community with the message of Jesus’s love when we preach insensitivity from the pulpit? Since my paster made those remarks in his sermon, I’ve been trying to formulate a response. l’m not very good at confrontation but I feel that his remarks in that context were not appropriate and I want to gently challenge him. These are my notes for that conversation.

I believe that it is perfectly acceptable within Christianity to hold a position that LGBT Christians must remain celibate. Within the Christian LGBT community, such a position is held by some. But I question whether or not it is appropriate for the church to argue against same-sex marriage as a legal contract approved of by the government for society as a whole.

Besides, inquiring minds, like mine, want to know just how the family is being threatened by same sex marriages?

➤ Which is worse for the family: same sex marriage or divorce between heterosexual parents?

The same Sunday that he preached this sermon, the worship leader was a woman who several years ago had an affair with a married man also on the worship team. The marriage broke up over the affair and the couple left the church. The worship leader participated in a restoration program with a female staff member at out church and was back participating on the worship team six months after the affair ended. Meanwhile, the wife and their two children were irreparably damaged.

(Note:  I also don’t intend to negate the power of repentance and restoration. Of course God forgives our sins, but the point is that the consequences of this sin live on in the life of the spouse and child who were damaged by the sin and have contributed. What threatens marriage? Divorce / Same-sex Marriage?)

I want to know... who has threatened marriage more... a gay couple (married in Iowa) who have been together for twenty years and are raising their two adopted special needs children or the two people on the worship team who’s affair destroyed a marriage or the Christian man who has been divorced twice, leaving children with two different wives and is now married to a third woman?

Just how does LGBT marriage threaten the family? Specifically. I want to know.

➤ Doesn’t encouraging stability in any relationship strengthen society as a whole? Isn’t it better for society as a whole for LGBT people to be in stable, committed relationships rather than be cast adrift as a single purson pursuing multiple partners?

The following quote was taken from a Huffington Post column written by Marten Weber.

"Marriage is about creating a state of government-sanctioned, stable cohabitation that, among other things, allows people to feel safe, settled, and complete. Having a mate makes us better people. It teaches us responsibility and the art of compromise, such as sharing the last of the ice cream in the fridge, taking out the trash, and upholding proper hygiene. It is a cultural tool that, ideally, makes men and women less volatile and more productive, one that makes us more civilized."

How does letting LGBT people experience this stable cohabitation destroy the family? I want to know?

➤ Legal Rights Conferred on Married Couple

I think that when Christians discuss marriage equality, it is important to remember that marriage in our society is more than a covenantal relationship between God and man. In our country, marriage is a legal arrangement sanctioned and overseen by the state that grants over a thousand rights to the individuals within a marriage. If I as a heterosexual have access to those rights, why should those same rights be denied to LGBT individuals? If they are citizens of our country why don’t they have the same rights and privileges as the rest of us?

Here are just a few of the 1000+ rights granted to married couples that aren’t given to un-married (whether gay or straight) couples:

The following quote from whymarriagematters.org

"There are over 1,100 protections and responsibilities conferred on married couples by the federal government including access to health care, parenting and immigration rights, social security, veterans and survivor benefits, and transfer of property—and that doesn't include several hundred state and local laws, protections conferred by employers, or the intangible security, dignity, respect, and meaning that comes with marriage.  Excluding committed same-sex couples from marriage means shutting out families from the safety and security created by these protections and responsibilities.

Taken as a whole, marriage law reveals a social consensus about how to treat two people who voluntarily pledge to care for each other and their children. Marriage laws enable (or require) couples to fulfill the most common wedding vows:

In sickness and in health: Marriage automatically enables spouses to visit each other in the hospital; to make each others' emergency medical decisions; to share a family health plan; and to take medical leave to care for a sick spouse or child.

For richer and for poorer: Marriage means that governments, banks, credit card companies, and other financial institutions will consider both spouse's incomes, assets, or debts in such matters as taxes, credit, loans, inheritance, divorce settlements, and eligibility for public housing, Medicaid, or Social Security benefits.

When a child joins the family: Marriage automatically enables the spouses to be joint parents, covering such situations as making school or medical decisions, applying for passports, passing on inheritances, or being eligible for visitation rights and child support obligations if the parents separate.

When death parts the pair: Marriage law enables a survivor to continue to care for (or be cared for by) the dead partner in such situations as making funeral arrangements, inscribing an epitaph, inheriting a lease, filing wrongful death claims, taking bereavement leave, and passing on property."


All of the above, if granted to same-sex couples, would seem to strengthen society, the family and not destroy it. In our country, marriage is not just a religious institution. It is a legal contract entered into with the permission of the government and dissolved with the permission of the government.

As Christians, whether or not we are gay affirming, it seems to me that we can still support same sex marriage because the issue is a matter of civic respect and fairness within a democratic society. A simple act of being a good neighbor.... treating others we would wish to be treated... loving our neighbors as ourselves.

And even if same-sex marriage is legal, churches can still decided on a church by church basis whether or not they want to perform a marriage between a couple (straight or gay) in their individual church. Church communities cannot be forced by the government to bless or perform any marriage.

➤ Can Homosexuals Change Their Orientation?

The evidence is growing that change in orientation is almost impossible. As reported on Canyon Walker connections, after 20+ years of trying to bring change and promising Christian LGBT people that change is possible, this past January Alan Chambers, president of Exodus International, at a GCN conference, admitted publicly, in front of a packed audience of over 400 gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender Christians, their friends, families and allies, that change in orientation is NOT possible. He said:

"The majority of people that I have met, and I would say the majority meaning 99.9% of them have not experienced a change in their orientation or have gotten to a place where they could say that they could  never be tempted or are not tempted in some way or experience some level of same-sex attraction. I think there is a gender issue there, there are some women who have challenged me and said that my orientation or my attractions have changed completely. Those have been few and far between. The vast majority of people that I know will experience some level of same-sex attraction."

Other leaders of other LGBT change organizations have also left their organizations and in one instance, John Smit formerly with Live in Action, offered a complex apology for the damaged LGBT lives he contributed to through his years with Love in Action.

The rest of society has held this position for years, but the Christian community is finally recognizing that change in orientation is not probable  and infact the organizations that promote change have harmed many of the people who they were supposed to help.

Back to same-sex marriage. If change is not possible, isn’t it cruel to deny the people who are not able to change their orientations the protections and legal rights of a marriage? Leaving the debate within the church aside, most LGBT people live a life outside the church (since we don’t welcome them in). Wouldn’t our society and their lives be better and more stable if marriage were available for them and their families? It certainly would be better if we would welcome LGBT people into our church communities.

It seems to me that is hard to demonstrate that allowing same-sex couples to marry threatens the family and destroys marriage. The arguments seem to be more fear based and comes from that place of protecting that which is comfortable and familiar. Instead of trying to walk in the shoes of LGBT people and see the world from their perspective, instead of trying to build bridges with people from the LGBT community, we Christians stridently scream about biblical definitions of marriage. However, we live in a country that, since it's inception, has promoted equality for all. Denying LGBT people the right to marry seems to fly in the face of that equality.

It seems to me that allowing people with same-sex orientation to marry strengthens our communities by providing stability to those that currently lack that stability. Since marriage is a secular/legal/societal contract authorized by the state, I believe that we should provide the LGBT community with the same protections and covenants available to everyone else.

Same-sex marriage is not a religious issue. It is not a ‘fear’ issue. It is a matter of treating all citizens in our country the same with the same rights and privileges. I believe that we can support same sex marriage because the issue is a matter of civic respect and fairness within a democratic society. A simple act of being a good neighbor.... treating others we would wish to be treated... loving our neighbors as ourselves. At least that’s how I see it.

I’m still researching my Christian theological view on same-sex relations. I can’t say for certain if the sexual behaviors of LGBT people are or are not sin. People who believe that God's Word is inerrant can and have come to different positions on this. What I do know is that God loves every LGBT person he has ever created and I do know that Jesus said that it is not my responsibility to point out the spec in anyone else’s eye. Jesus told me to work on the logs in my eye and let other believers worry about their sawdust. I know that holds true in this discourse.

I don't really expect my church or my pastor to come out in support of marriage equality. That is a place too far, but I do hope that he will be more cautious in his public words.  I've been thinking about giving him a copy of Andrew Marin's book Love is an Orientation to help him learn about building bridges with the LGBT community.

Anyone have anything else I can include? K

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Remembering Oscar

Recently I had to say goodbye to my oldest dog, Oscar. He was my valentine's baby, born February 14, 2000, so we had just celebrated his 12th birthday. He had been in great health... although he was starting to get a little deaf and his vision wasn’t as good as it had been. But he didn’t seem to have any aches and pains and was his usual affectionate and loving self.



When I went to bed that night, he was restless... couldn’t seem to settle. That had been happening to him more and more anyway, so it didn’t seem unusual. Something awakened me about 12:30. He was still restless and so I opened the door from the bedroom to the rest of house hoping he’d get comfortable on the couch... his favorite perch.



Just after I opened the door, he started to act like he needed to vomit... except nothing came up. Suddenly I was on full alert. BLOAT! I felt his stomach and it was tight like a drum. I lost another Standard Poodle, Clifford, about seven years ago to bloat, so I was familiar with the symptoms. But I was in my condo in Door County ... miles from the closest vet and particularly in the winter, no one would be open at night. I called all the vets in the yellow pages and finally found one that gave me a number for an emergency vet in Green Bay, eighty miles to the south.



I called them, described his symptoms and got directions to their storefront Emergency Vet Clinic about 90 minutes away. Fortunately I had a fairly full tank of gas for my 160 mile round trip because I saw absolutely no open gas stations. I have now learned that I must always keep half a tank of gas in my car in case of emergencies.



(This was the second time I’d had to drive a dog to an emergency vet... although the previous time it was an emergency hospital because Winston, my Cavalier King Charles Spaniel, had consumed an entire package of Trident gum which is toxic to dogs. I had to drive to  Appleton, which was a two+ hour drive and leave him for 24 hours for observations. Fortunately he seemed to have no ill effects.)


With Oscar, the vet confirmed my diagnosis and after a consultation, I elected to have him put to sleep. They had a nice area where I could be with him while he died.



He was such a great dog. Very even tempered and affectionate and we are all missing him. I remember driving to Pennsylvania with my Dad in his RV to pick up Oscar. I'd had my previous puppy flown out from Arizona and the dog had been traumatized by the flight, so I felt it was worth while to make the trip to pick this puppy up. He was always a sweet and kind dog and the trip with my Dad is a special memory.

Now it's just two dogs no cat.

With a sad heart, goodbye, Oscar. I loved you, K


Saturday, March 10, 2012

Best Friends or not

One of the things missing in my life is a BFF. This is not unusual for me. Looking back over my life, it has been an elusive goal to have a best friend.
See... here is my best friend!!

In elementary school, I never clicked with the other girls... being smart and athletic wasn’t fully appreciated by children in the fifties. I did find one girl that I clicked with one summer. Her newly married older sister was renting an apartment in a garage across the alley from our house. Lorraine and I really got along. But she was only around for one month and by the next summer her sister has married. Still, it was an important event for me... I don’t remember much of my childhood, but I remember that summer friendship.

This was a neighborhood friend, Pam who was a couple of years older than I. Our friendship never went beyond the neighborhood to school.


In Junior High I had a best friend for one year. We loved Mad Comics, which was the new thing, and tried to create our own version, Cracked. It was my one year of rebellion and Susie was my partner in crime. That friendship lasted only a year.

Growing up, two of my best friends were male identical twins. Their mother was good friends with my mother and we had been together on many family occasions plus we went to the same school from Kindergarten through High School and had lots of shared experiences. I remember that in fourth or fifth grade when the split the boys and girls into separate groups for 'the video' we shared our separate experiences on the walk home from school. They lived half a mile closer to school than I and by the time I got home, their mother had shared with my mother the extent of our conversation. Both moms were furious!

The twins with their family and mine up in Door County in 1962.

In High School the pattern continues and I never really connected with any girls (or guys for that matter. I didn't date in High School). I was third (or fourth) wheel friends with a trio that had been together since Kindergarten, but wasn’t exceptionally close to any of them.

In college it was much the same story. I was the third/fourth wheel friend of other groups of girls. None of them were really best friends.
Here are Smitch and Julie at my wedding (my homemade by me 'monk's wedding dress). Smitch and Julie were two of my roommates and best friends through the last two years of college... although they were closer to each other than to me.
As a young married adult, I did have a best friend for a while.  My friendship with Kathy lasted for the three years I was in California and for a decade after I moved back to the midwest, despite the fact that she had an affair with my husband while we were still married. Of course, I didn’t learn about the affair until several years after my divorce so the impact was a little muted and didn’t destroy the friendship.
That's Kathy on the left in about 1990 almost 20 years into our friendship.
 However, our friendship didn’t survive my becoming a Christian. After I became a Christian we sort of drifted apart. We both had grown up in very religious Christian families and one of our bonds was that we had both rejected the faith of our youth. When I went back to the faith of our youth... well  the friendship, which by that time was only an occasional phone call or letter drifted apart. Still we had maintained contact for over 30+ years. The last time I saw her was in 1997.

Another adult friend I had I met through a business organization. We were both daughters in family businesses started by our fathers and we were both divorced. We traveled together to conventions for about five years. But we both passed through the Young Executive barrier to Senior Executive and stopped attending the conventions and then we lost touch.
Toni with her children and Kay at our family farm in about 1987.

I was friends with a couple that I met at my church for several years although we gradually drifted apart even before they moved to New Orleans.

Since then... I haven’t had any remotely close friendships with women. I have a young women who ‘rents’ a room in my home (well young to me, she’s in her mid forties), and we are fairly close but by no definition of the term would I call her a best friend. I am more of a parent figure to her.
2011 Christmas with my Mom and Dad and Marie and I.
I’m just starting to figure out that I have become too isolated. Five years ago I retired and that left me without the day to day contact with people in the office. At about the same time I left the small church that I had attended for twenty years. I had some friends (no best friends but people that I was connected to through years of small group and service together) and most of us left the church at the same time although we have all ended up a different churches... and in my new church I haven’t really connected with anyone or any group in the same way.

I just spent two weeks in my cottage in Door County and the only live interaction with people was with the cashiers in the grocery store. I had a few phone calls with family, and one long phone call from Marie, my housemate, (but that’s almost her talking the whole time... I’m just a handy listener).

So I’m wondering about what it is about me that precludes a best friend? What is missing in me that doesn’t enable me to have close confidant? I was watching Oprah’s next chapter when she visited Paula Deane and took her BFF Gayle King with her. Even a big star like Oprah has a BFF... why oh why don’t I.

I’ve never felt really comfortable around other women. When I was a teen I just didn’t understand the whole girly thing. I’m not into make-up and dresses and high heels. I don’t really connect to jewelry and accessories. I’ve always been a pants and shirt kind of girl. Growing up in the fifties was torment because we HAD to wear a dress or skirt to school. Even the college I attended required that women wear a dress to class and to the dining hall. In college I was once stopped by the dorm mother because at 7 at night I was leaving the dorm dressed in pants. I explained that I was on the drama set construction crew and we were going to be hammering, sawing and painting and  a dress just didn’t work for this kind of activity. She wouldn’t let me leave in my pants. That’s the way it was back then...

Anyway, when I’m in a group, like my small group from church, seven times out of ten I prefer to discuss things with the men in the group... (except I’m not into sports so much). Still, I don’t really fit in with the men either. Most of the people with whom I have managed to form a best friend type relationship have been thinking women who are extroverts. It’s too stressful for me to try and be a best friend with another introvert.

But the problem I have with extroverts is that while most of the time I’m happy to let them rattle on about whatever it is that they rattle on about... it’s hard to get an extrovert to stop and really listen to me... when I need that ear.

I think that is why I have decided to write a blog.

Sometimes I just need to talk.

Anyway... who’s your BFF and can you relate? K